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ya_ra_na_i_ka2016-12-25 02:47 am
befriender) wrote in ya_ra_na_i_ka2016-12-25 02:47 am
matoba + natsume; closed
summary: pre-fujiwara natsume joins the matoba clan au
[ in a few short weeks, Natsume’s life had completely changed. his days tinted with fear of things he couldn’t understand, days of plastered smiles and lies, and days of wondering how long he had until being passed onto the next house had come to an end. what he now had were days filled with knowledge, protection and a sense of belonging. the initial shyness and awkwardness of coming to a completely new place had begun dissolving, and as each day passed on by, Natsume felt more comfortable within the Matoba clan.
giving a small smile and a bow to one of the maids as she passed by, Natsume hurried along the long halls of the house back to his room after his tutoring session. although he had objected at first, not wishing to be a bother, he was now glad for the fact that he did not have to go to school. it had always been difficult trying to study while deflecting whispers and rumors of himself and ignoring the yokai’s wandering about. within the house grounds, no stray spirits came in and no one in the household was rude enough to whisper about Natsume within hearing range.
as he quickly put away his studying materials, Natsume thought of his current caretaker, Matoba Seiji, the head of the Matoba clan. because of the man, Natsume had been able to learn he was not alone in the world, that he wasn’t crazy like so many of his relatives thought. not only had Matoba given Natsume a new place to stay, he gave Natsume a place that didn't need lies and knowledge about the yokai’s that plagued his life. Matoba shattered Natsume’s previous world and given him an even better one. the day Natsume entered the clan’s grounds, he promised he would do whatever he could to return the gratitude he felt. and for that, he first had to learn everything he could about the unnatural creatures hidden from normal world ]
…It’s no good if I keep running away in fear from them. I have to be stronger… Like Matoba-san.
[ in a few short weeks, Natsume’s life had completely changed. his days tinted with fear of things he couldn’t understand, days of plastered smiles and lies, and days of wondering how long he had until being passed onto the next house had come to an end. what he now had were days filled with knowledge, protection and a sense of belonging. the initial shyness and awkwardness of coming to a completely new place had begun dissolving, and as each day passed on by, Natsume felt more comfortable within the Matoba clan.
giving a small smile and a bow to one of the maids as she passed by, Natsume hurried along the long halls of the house back to his room after his tutoring session. although he had objected at first, not wishing to be a bother, he was now glad for the fact that he did not have to go to school. it had always been difficult trying to study while deflecting whispers and rumors of himself and ignoring the yokai’s wandering about. within the house grounds, no stray spirits came in and no one in the household was rude enough to whisper about Natsume within hearing range.
as he quickly put away his studying materials, Natsume thought of his current caretaker, Matoba Seiji, the head of the Matoba clan. because of the man, Natsume had been able to learn he was not alone in the world, that he wasn’t crazy like so many of his relatives thought. not only had Matoba given Natsume a new place to stay, he gave Natsume a place that didn't need lies and knowledge about the yokai’s that plagued his life. Matoba shattered Natsume’s previous world and given him an even better one. the day Natsume entered the clan’s grounds, he promised he would do whatever he could to return the gratitude he felt. and for that, he first had to learn everything he could about the unnatural creatures hidden from normal world ]
…It’s no good if I keep running away in fear from them. I have to be stronger… Like Matoba-san.
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[ Matoba smiles at him, something glinting in his eye when he sees the colour pour into Natsume's cheeks. It's clear to him that the boy has all the reservations of his age - he'd know what the implication of sleeping in the same room was, surely? Although, now that the exorcist considers it, he has no knowledge of how much the teenager has been taught about those sorts of things - and he wonders that how much of the boy's consenting to something physical between them would be due to desire for the clan leader himself, or to ensure the security of his position in his new home. Potentially, he thinks, looking at that blush, it would be a combination of the two, and he pats Natsume's hand, something comforting in the gesture.
There's a wicked lilt beneath his words when he does speak, however; an implication that may go over the boy's head, but exists there nonetheless, subliminal in the way it hints openly at a sexual relationship. ]
I hope that if you were curious about anything, you would come to me with your questions. There's no topic off limits between you and I, Natsume-kun.
[ A beat, and that smile widens. ]
You may find the answers are simpler than you imagined.
[ Which is a lie. Nothing is ever simple with Matoba - least of all this.
But, he lets go of Natsume's hand, and reaches out to press the back of a cool hand to his cheek, his smile not wavering. ]
Why are you blushing?